It wasn’t beautiful. A Winter wedding is a union of elation and depression, red velvet blankets in a cheap motel room stained with semen from sex devoid of meaning, and black mold clinging to the fringe of floral shower curtains like a heap of dead forevers.

You sat down at the foot of the bed, looking at me like I had already
driven away. I was thinking about watching CNN. How fucked up is that? I wanted to know that your second hand, off-white dress, and my black polyester bow tie wasn’t as tragic as a hurricane devouring a suburb, or a train derailment in no where, Virginia, ending the lives of two young college hopefuls.

I was naïve. I thought that there were as many right ways to feel love as the amount of

pubic hair, 

belly lint, and

scratch marks abandoned by lovers in our honeymoon suite.

When you looked at me in bed that night, I put my hand on your chest to feel a little more human. I don’t know what to call you; a name does not describe the aches, or lack of. This love is unusual and comfortable.
If you were to leave, I know I’d search for days, in newspapers and broadcasts, in car accidents and exposés on genocide in Kosovo.

(How do I address this? How is one to feel about
a love without a name?)

My heart would be ambivalent, too scared to look for you
behind the curtains of the motel window, outside in the abyss of powder and pay phones
because I don’t know how to fall.

Kosovo, Lucas Regazzi (via 1000scientists)

baekchen fics;

baekluna:

Title: maybe you’re hoping for a fairytale, too
Author: onyu
Rating: PG-13
Word count: 1683
Summary: Baekhyun is the last member to be included in EXO. In an effort to climb to the top as quickly as possible, he runs into Jongdae. (AR, in which EXO is all of K + the Korean…

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scythelliot:

plant boy
this is where bus sketches get me

scythelliot:

plant boy

this is where bus sketches get me

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boldasxloveee:

Joy Division // Disorder

Who is right, who can tell, and who gives a damn right now.

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empressfab:

Find Your Light: a mix for fresh starts, new places, and being brave about doing scary things (a graduation present for E)[ listen ] [ download ] 



01. chicago - sufjan stevens ✈  we sold our clothes to the state / i don’t mind, i don’t mind / i made a lot of mistakes / in my mind, in my mind 02. new soul - yael naim ✈  i’m a young soul in this very strange world / hoping i could learn a bit about what’s true and fake 03. big jumps - emiliana torrini ✈  make some big jumps, big jumps / you afraid to break some bones? 04. the painter - i’m from barcelona ✈  don’t give up on your dreams, boy / don’t give up on your dreams now, buddy 05. streetlights - rocky votolato ✈  seems like i’ve got so much more to lose now / than i ever had before06. live your life - yuna ✈  we were meant for something bigger than this / don’t ever try to dismiss yourself, ‘cause you don’t have to 07. wetsuit - the vaccines ✈  oh you want to do things differently / go do them independently 08. go places - the new pornographers ✈  make records, then set them / make copies, win races / stay with me, go places 09. look up - stars ✈  so far, keeping it together’s been enough / look up, rain is falling, looks like love 10. payne’s bay - beirut ✈  headstrong today, i’ve been headstrong 11. go do - jónsi ✈  go do, you’ll learn to / just let yourself fall into landslide 12. laughter lines - bastille ✈  i’ll see you in the future when we’re older / when we are full of stories to be told 13. can’t go back now - the weepies ✈  you and me walk on / ‘cause you can’t go back now 14. keep your head up - ben howard ✈  keep your head up / keep your heart strong / keep your mind set / keep your hair long 15. wake up - arcade fire ✈  with my lightnin’ bolts aglowin’ / i can see where i am go-goin’ / you better look out below

empressfab:

Find Your Light: a mix for fresh starts, new places, and being brave about doing scary things (a graduation present for E)
[ listen ] [ download

01. chicago - sufjan stevens
 we sold our clothes to the state / i don’t mind, i don’t mind / i made a lot of mistakes / in my mind, in my mind
02. new soul - yael naim
  i’m a young soul in this very strange world / hoping i could learn a bit about what’s true and fake
03. big jumps - emiliana torrini
✈  make some big jumps, big jumps / you afraid to break some bones?
04. the painter - i’m from barcelona
✈  don’t give up on your dreams, boy / don’t give up on your dreams now, buddy
05. streetlights - rocky votolato
✈  seems like i’ve got so much more to lose now / than i ever had before
06. live your life - yuna
✈  we were meant for something bigger than this / don’t ever try to dismiss yourself, ‘cause you don’t have to
07. wetsuit - the vaccines
✈  oh you want to do things differently / go do them independently
08. go places - the new pornographers
✈  make records, then set them / make copies, win races / stay with me, go places
09. look up - stars
✈  so far, keeping it together’s been enough / look up, rain is falling, looks like love
10. payne’s bay - beirut
✈  headstrong today, i’ve been headstrong
11. go do - jónsi
✈  go do, you’ll learn to / just let yourself fall into landslide
12. laughter lines - bastille
✈  i’ll see you in the future when we’re older / when we are full of stories to be told
13. can’t go back now - the weepies
✈  you and me walk on / ‘cause you can’t go back now
14. keep your head up - ben howard
✈  keep your head up / keep your heart strong / keep your mind set / keep your hair long
15. wake up - arcade fire
✈  with my lightnin’ bolts aglowin’ / i can see where i am go-goin’ / you better look out below

(via 5hts)

Let it die. Let there be a new beginning. It’s awful. Goodnight.

Charles Bukowski (via blue-voids)

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